Grateful

So,
It's been a while, a long while. I have had a host of new experiences. I have traveled across the entire country, worked as a performer, went to and dropped out of hair school, tried to settle for what I didn't actually want. I have cried, I have struggled. I have dealt with the ever enduring family cancer battle. I have taken giant leaps of faith, and I have landed on sturdy ground, soft, springy ground that seems like its actually much greener than grass before it.
I find myself back in my hometown, Santa Barbara. I've found myself again. Free from the grip of negativity, from extreme stress. Free from unpleasant people and feeling like a gear in a clock thats broken. I have found work that I enjoy, working for kind, laid back, open minded wonderful people that I respect. I am not pressured to drink, to smoke cigarettes. I am healthy and robust. The ocean air has forced my lungs open again, oxygenated my body, I have coughed and hacked and spit up all the foul blackness in my lungs. I have fasted. I have freed myself from the heavy burden of toxic fat. I've discovered the strength within my body, running like I'm flying across the beautiful beach, feeling the strength in my legs and my core as I bike again. I have climbed mountains and drank fresh river water. The sun has kissed me again, there's sand in my car, in my bed, in my shoes.
Funny enough, I have not settled, I refuse to make myself miserable, and everything seems to be lining itself up for me. The happier I am, the more blessings the world gives me. I cry now, only from joy, and disbelief of the perfect life I am beginning to live.

I have met wonderful people, I am a positive influence on my family, my mother, who is fighting for her life the right way, getting healthy, finally free from the grip of sadness and stress. She is now my inspiration and I am her's. I love being here for her, and am excited for her journey. I am living in a constant state of love with my wonderful husband, whose ambition, unwavering support, love and positivity keep me headed in the right direction every single day.
I am truly blessed, and for this I am so grateful.

Skye